I was too shame because my whole life that I had lived until now was like garbage.

I was too shame because my whole life that I had lived until now was like garbage.


The youngest sister had been staying at the main center for three months.

Nevertheless, I couldn't go to the main center because I was busy with my work.

I just went to my local center once or twice a week and for my meditation, it took less than an hour, so continuously, I was only doing level 2.

I used this holiday as a great opportunity to do meditation in main center.

And I entered the main center with my younger sisters. 

For the first two days, I was motivated to throw away pictures.

But on the evening of the third day, my emotions suddenly surged, and I couldn't do meditation so I was clamoring for going home and playing.

Then my younger sister said. “How do you get home without throwing it away yet!”

I was awakened by my sister's words.

So I got myself together and started to meditation again.

Around Thursday evening, I was too shame because I could see myself living my whole life like garbage.


Shame


My life was really awful and there were so many photos that it seemed impossible to throw them away.

I wanted to give up.

However, when my teacher explained to me about my photos were all fake, I believed what he said and could throw them away at once.

Because it was really fake, I could admit it was fake.

After I also realized that my thoughts that it is still difficult for me to step up to next level meant that I did not want to abandon myself, I concentrated on meditation again.

Then, I thought that the frame and concept I had made, which were fake, were not even worth thinking about.

Everything was fake, it was an imaginary mind that I made.

After eliminating the false me, the world and people were so beautiful.

We were all one.


Banani Meditation in Dhaka Bangladesh


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