Happiness and gratitude of just being here intactly

Just being here intactly, I was happy and full of gratitude.


I had always been obsessed with my thoughts and I was hurt and I always whined.

I just lived only in my frame.

So I did not acknowledge the opinion of other people.

In fact, in my case, I usually used to put up with something and I continued to pretend to be kind to people.

I always tried to do better and to be better so I determined that I tried to have more and more.

But my mind that I had been holding back finally exploded so the people around me were really very hopeless.

Previously, my parents said that I was a really good daughter.

Such a daughter was only pretending to be nice, but eventually exploded and for about three years, I continued to torment the people around me.

I has become a truly terrifying monster.

Through the practice of meditation, I saw myself for the first time and abandoned me.

When I had a session, I was most impressed with what the teacher said during the lecture, 'People only know themselves.'

So I realized how useless the mind that I had only eaten so far was and I judged others based on the thoughts I had 

Therefore, I was always hurt, angry, and sad.

I realized how stupid these things were.

I only knew myself.

So in order not to hurt others or make them sick anymore, I kept looking back on how ugly I was.

I was so sad when I realized how I had made the people around me hard and difficulty up to now.

I was in pain whenever I ate more and more in my heart. 

Likewise, I was in pain again just whenever I took it out. 

And many people came to mind such as people who cried and had a hard time because of me, people who couldn't bear it because of me and left me, people who gave up on me because of me and people who don't trust me because of me, etc.

And I repented earnestly to get rid of that ugly me.

I came to know these facts through meditation and I had to admit how stupid I was.

I always said to people, "You don't even know my mind!"

Now that I could see it, it was natural because obviously, other people could not see my mind.

So how can the other people know my mind and thoughts?

Is it real or fake that my mind that no one could see and only I had?

It was obviously fake.

People who always lived with that fake mind were bound to be unhappy.

I could feel a change of my heart.

At the same time, I wanted to recommend meditation to my precious people.

Actually, I was always a person full of sadness and loneliness, "Why am I so hard? Why am I lonely? I want to be loved."

I always had the mindset of ‘I don’t want to be hurt by others! I want to be loved!'

But nothing was filled.

When I get rid of my mind and thoughts, I didn't have to try to fill it with anything.

Just being here intactly, I was happy and full of gratitude.




I wanted to make people feel this happiness when I eliminated the mind and thoughts.

In order for an incomplete human to become complete, I believe that this practice of subtracting the mind is essential.


Banani Meditation in Dhaka Bangladesh


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